Thursday, July 25, 2013
Some people tell me a small tornado touched down in Bayonne a few days ago,
part of what is supposed to a strange weather pattern.
This coupled with the death of Elvis Tribute Artist Eddie
O’Rourke only served to bring me back to that horrible summer in 1977 when I
was working in a warehouse in Fairfield
when a small tornado ripped up a portion of the roof.
For some reason, I was up front in the office rather than
where I should have been back near the loading bay when I heard the crunch of
metal ripping, and rushed back to find the area where I worked uncovered, and
rain dripping off the rip along with sunlight.
Cliff, a one-time linebacker for the University of
Pittsburgh (whose injured knee kept from the pros – a fact that allowed me to
pick on him with impunity since I could run faster than him) stood with giant
hands on his giant hips staring up at the roof, looking at it, then me, as if
he expected me not to be there, drawn up into the funnel perhaps to become that
fake wizard I more our less pretended to be.
This was a summer full of such disasters, full of fear of
some guy in New York that would later be called “Son of Sam” but whom the news
reports referred to as the 44 caliber killer, and the great black out that
showed us all how terrible humanity can be when there are no rules to keep us
in order, and then, the death of Elvis, who most of us didn’t feel much about
until his death, although his songs had haunted me my whole life, especially
when I served in the army.
It was that summer my family moved south to Toms River ,
and my mother forced to move with them, clinging with all her fingernails to
the Paterson
she loved and leaving scratch marks down the New Jersey Turnpike a blind man
could follow.
Some years just don’t set right in the universe, ripping up
the tarmac of our lives, taking their place in our collective memories not for
any good reason.
And yet, there are times when I think back at that summer
with fondness, and puzzled by the ironies. Such as my best friend falling in
love with a girl from Toms River that summer so that each weekend we both wound
up wandering the Sea Side board walk, finding each other, getting drunk in one
of the cheap Sea Side bars, both of us trying to pick up the girls who didn’t
want hippie types like us, but the macho muscle-bound beach bums who wanted to
beat us up for even looking at the girls they wanted.
I remember standing at the mouth of Toms River and the bay
and being awed by sunset and the light flickering off the water, and by the old
Victorian hotel that sat there like a queen, and by the widows walks where in
old days the wives of sailors kept watch for sight of ships returning, although
the only sails I saw were those of small sail boats struggling against the
wind.
All these years later, I still remember the ducks and geese,
who quacked in lowered voices while I strummed guitar and sang, not to them but
to the waves and the gusts of wind, feeling as if somehow being there was part
of destiny, and that the measure of sadness that year brought, was more than
made up for by the powerful images that remain fixed in my mind, images that
return when I hear things elsewhere – even this far north in Bayonne.
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