Friday, February 7, 2020

Nothing but the dead and dying (in Jimmy's little town)




Friday, February 7, 2020

No snow remained anywhere I could see around the trailer park. But you could tell from the gray and the withered growth to either side that the world was still embraced by winter.
The sky promised rain and maybe even flurries. And yet, amid this, a dirty yellow Jeep with municipal license plates made its way from trailer to trail, much in the way a honey bee from flower to flower in season, an old man with a tilted hat seated behind the wheel, surveying the landscape with the same diligence.
He pulled up the jeep in the driveway next to Jimmy’s, got out, carrying a large yellow toolbox with the name Dewalt written across its side in black letters. He eyed some of the other trailers and then moved on to another across the gravel road, the toolbox weighing down, tilting him to one side to make him look like a drunken sailor.
Gray hair poked out from under his baseball style cap. He had a large mustache that made him look how Thurman Munson might have looked in Thurman Munson had lived to his age, reminding me of those days when Jimmy lived on Pine Street in Montclair and invited me over to watch the New York Yankees lose on TV.
On the old man’s second trip around the trailer court, he paused to look at me, clearly wondering what I was doing there.
When I told him, I was an old friend of Jimmy’s, he relaxed, but also seemed to grow sad, even weary, as if he carried the burden of Jimmy’s death on his shoulder.
He told me had been there when the police it comes to break into the trailer after Jimmy's death, and then later when Maureen arrived, and a short time after that Patty and John, recalling their ashen faces, and the look of pain each bore.
He said he was likely the last person from the trailer court to have spoken to Jimmy before Jimmy’s death.
He had come over to look at the sundial Jimmy had posted on the stump of an old tree, the old man had cut down some time earlier, but was never able to remove the remains.
“I told him he had installed wrong,” the old man said. “I can tell the time just by looking at the sun and I could tell that the Sundial was wrong. He told me that someone must have been messing with it because had set it right when he put it out here.”
They talked briefly about the struggle to deal with the dead tree, and the trouble stumps cause when trying to move them, at which point, Jimmy said he had to get something from the supermarket and drove off.
That was the last time the old man saw or spoke with Jimmy. He learned of the death two days later when the cops showed up to break into the trailer in order to find someone they could call to inform about Jimmy’s passing.
Like the rest of us, the old man seemed to think he might have said more to Jimmy if he had known at that time that it would be the last time, something wise about the life and death struggle of trees, and how stubborn tree stumps can be in keeping their grip on this world, and perhaps thinking maybe Jimmy’s spirt was like that stump still had roots here even if we could not see them.
Then, the old man moved on, carrying his toolbox to a trailer across the street, mumbling something about always having something to fix somewhere.





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